GPA. Committment. when will i ever learn.

"you've got to earn the UN"

so its been nearly a month of school and i've come up with a series of questions to determine my current state in uni life.

have you been keeping up with readings?
NO.
do you have a CCA?
i have 2! and possibly floorball...
have you been putting in 100% effort into your assignments so far?
no...
how's class participation?
suckish.
but are you enjoying school?
pretty much cos of stuff outside class.


okay that method isn't working really well. anyway, bottom line is. I'M TAKING LESSONS ON DEEJAYING!! AND MASHUPS. awesomecoolnessbeyondomgi'msowowedbythepeoplewhoareteachingushowtodoeverything


time is just a melody.

alrighteeee. i guess everything has sort of settled down. unfortunately my irritation surfaced yesterday. and i am sorry! i feel pretty guilty. OH GOSH. and i guess i can start making a wishlist for my birthday!!! yeah gurpreet, thats totally not self centred. I GEDDIT. but still...
hokay actually the paramore concert was big enough a present and shall not be forgotten for a long time!

but now to worry about the freshmen bash that's tmr. i have no idea what to wear!!!

hokay so the bottom line: i shall consciously try to be happy from now on. not that it was an effort before but you know what i mean.

STATS PROF WHY YOU SO MEAN TO MEEEEE!!!

i love how covers of songs dilute the original tune of the song and make it somehow more 'vulnerable and fragile.' it upps the emotion. i dunno. just a view.

speaking of views: ACADEMIC WRITING. is. not. fun. but i guess with my new positive attitude, its not that bad..i mean its about writing with your own voice so i guess i kinda like that.

signing out,
keep lookin' for them hamsters, they be hidin' in the rough.

(no idea what that meant!)

maybe i'm just feeling generally irritated thats all. THATS ALL. i should finish my work, stop distracting myself and get some readings done. and after that, recover from my paramore hangover with a good sleep. THATS THE SOLUTION. OHSHITWHATABOUTSTATS!!!! ohk i'll do that too. i guess i could finish everything by 11pm if i really get down to it. yes. NO MORE DISTRACTIONS AND PROCRASTINATION. this is the beginning of my new working self people. WATCH OUT. grumble i may, but i get my shit done.

until i finish what i set out to do,
PROSPECTING.FOR.HAMSTERS.

term has started. its officially the second week of school and i can officially say that i'm already beginning to get irritated/bored with it. what with the homework finally starting to come in and class participation being emphasized in every lesson, its honestly getting annoying. also, it could be due to how i haven't really been keeping up with my readings and other research that could be the cause of my current distress but you get the picture. i've had enough of this lifestyle. i wish i could change. i guess this lifestyle is going to change what with the ccas finally starting and all. but i don't like the idea of waiting till 7pm just to go for talks about ccas that you signed up for with your eyes and ears open. i mean, I KNEW WHAT I WAS GETTING INTO WHEN I SIGNED UP. no no, the logical part of me has begun to rationalise how talks like those would have its benefits. but then again, logic has no emotion does it. i'm also unhappy at how easily memories that i thought were invaluable and downright OMG seem to have melted away and been dismissed by a passing phrase with no meaning. LIP SERVICE. thats what i call it. it would only make sense when a person puts so much emotion into something, not to return to it with a rather dismissive attitude. i mean, WE PUT A LOT OF EMOTION INTO IT TOO. the admiration and appreciation and not to mention the AWE we had for you. and then they just leave. i guess its just disappointment talking.

oh and the PARAMORE CONCERT WAS AWESOME OH MY GOSH. hearing all those paramore songs in person with them playing and singing was just (i sound like a disney fanatic) MAGICAL. it makes the songs on the album sound hostile. cos when you're hearing it live with hayley singing her guts out and jeremy playing like its the end of the world, the song (here it comes again, another disney reference) COMES ALIVE.

so its almost here. the start of term. and today's convocation. don't ask me why convocation is at the beginning of uni life. i'm accepting some truths that have obscure logic. this is the day i've been waiting for since the end of the a levels. well. this is the end that i had in mind when i started primary school i guess. i mean, where else are you going to go? and now that its finally here, i'm not sure whether i'm actually ready for it yet.

alright. i cant believe today's convocation. i realised that i have no idea how to get to suntec. OH WELL. thats not really an issue though. okay, enough with the reflection. classes start on monday (i'm pretty sure i'm missing out on a lot in life by not having lectures.) R came back from whereever she's been hiding for the past 3 months. i'm doing this post on my new lappy btw!!! its brilliant blue. the plastic's not even off yet.

i wonder how hectic it'll be. i wonder how weird the people will be... oh gosh there are SO many questions. how in the world do you study in uni???? i have no clue. i cant even open my locker. yes gurpreet, just stay cool and act like you meant to take all that stuff back home instead.

looking at the classlists for my mods, OMG. it just makes you want to hurl. in a nervous omg way... this will have to include a lot of self-convincing. weirdness/weird people aside, CCA openhouse is this saturday... well next saturday. HOW MANY TO JOIN?!!!

ok. enough freaking out. just take a deep breathe and SMILE.

Alright I know I've been MIA since well... The last post. And I have a pretty good reason for it as well I mean i've been annoyingly busy with camps and matriculation and right now, bidding for modules and slots so that I have something to study this term. But jokes aside bidding has been really stressful and confusing. Had it not been for 2 seniors, I dont think I would have been able to figure out anything. Oh and speaking of not being able to figure things out, I have yet to open my locker. I mean I have the combination and everything but I just have no idea how to put the combination into the stupid thing! Haha oh well. I guess I'll also have to ask someone about that.

My recent camp was dirty. I mean the dirty games involved raw meat, the vegetables we had for lunch earlier, a myriad of sauces including wasabi, and molten cheese. Yes. Molten cheese. Which got stuck to my shirt that was dripping with soya sauce already. Eww.

Oh and despite the randomness of it, still in love with cobra starship's you make me feel!!!! That song makes me want tO learn how to produce music. OH WELL. I just hope I can survive term. That's not too much to ask for is it?

I lost my jacket during camp. My super awesome oversized hoodie. Shit. And then I got the weirdest reaction from some people. Awkward.

Hopefully I'll be able to post more often. Well probably not! Getting too lazy to post these days. Almost like how Natalie tran went on a REALLY long hiatus.

I'm OUT.

It's been a long time and I know i shouldn't have abandoned my cute lil blog so here I am!! Alright just to fill you in on the current stuff... I've been really busy matriculating into smu biz and going for camps!! Well it's only been 1 camp do far but I'm going for another one next week and also at the end of July... My life's getting busier and term hasn't even started yet. In other news, my bro's back from Australia for a month which I'm grateful for... OH AND I GOT THE WHITE IPHONE!! in fact This entire post is being typed out on my
Cute little device. Also, I apologize in advance for any autocorrecting that my phone does or doesn't do to make anything sound weird.. The freshmen teambuilding camp, as it's called in smu, was quite fun... I mean Rey had a live music night with the awesome Sylvia who's a featured artist at timbre so that was pretty cool... And then at around 9plus they started playing clubbish music and everyone started dancing... They even had smoke machines so it was pretty fun. It's also nice that my orientation group wanted to go out for diner yesterday... And then we went to visit our beloved facis who wee supposed to be goin for the next run of FTB. And I can't believe I haven't watched transformers yetttt!! But I also can't believe THE AWESOME MEGAN FOX ISN'T THERE!!! how could you possibly make a transformers movie without MEGAN FOX. I mean, WHO DOES THAT.

Moving on... Apparently all smu students have to clear 80 hours of community service otherwise they won't be allowe to graduate. 80 sounds like a LONG time. Which is why I'm gg for the big bang camp...anyway, hopefully term and general uni life will be kind to me.

COBRA STARSHIP IS PURE GOLD.

IN THE BRIGHT WHITE NOISE.

I know it's embarrassingly literature-ish of me but that image is amazing!!!! And the way his voice goes up at that bit. The powerful use of relative silence in the song to strengthen that one line. OH GOSHHHHHHH!!!! okay, enough with the gushing...

alright i know that title doesnt right true when singapore uni is being discussed. but its a 'do-or-die' situation. well.. maybe thats a tad too exaggerated? the decision is done and i have to admit that 20% of me is screaming "HOW IN THE WORLD COULD YOU REJECT NUS FASS?!!!!" well whats done is done. and i hope i'm doing the right thing. its time to deal with my situation and get on with my matriculation!!! and from now till august 15th (when term officially starts) i'll be LOVING MY LIFE AND ALL ITS FREEDOM.

alright. i've been in such a state of confusion these past few days. i wish someone would just tap me on the shoulder and tell me what i should do. i mean other than making that decision, there's really nothing else to think about. wow. i guess i should be grateful for that kind of freedom.
(i wish i was in uni of manchester)NOT PRACTICAL.

anyway thats not even a legit consideration since i got local offers. oh gosh i'm just confusing myself more. oh GOSH.

in more serious matters (HAH what could be more serious than uni admissions..) my final theory test (2nd attempt) is TOMORROW. yup. so i booked like 2 trial tests for today. i guess i should be studying for that now but i'm just procrastinating as usual... (this skill of mine is going to be the cause of death HAHAHA)

i was thinking of getting a paramore tshirt/chain. it would be so cool!! i wonder.

i'm in a state of panic. after so many days of waiting and killing myself over everything, the universities have made their offers. i'm grateful that all 3 of them in singapore have done so. PHEW. but now that the deadline is coming for me to decide which of the offers i will accept, I'M FREAKING OUT. smu recently made their offer. i mean everything was set and i had pretty much decided that nus fass was it but NOOOO. smu's offer has upset EVERYTHING. i went for the nus fass openhouse and was pleased with the idea of exposure modules and the various camps and the idea of being in nus. but how can i reject smu biz, the course that i've been wanting but didnt think i could get!! so i've reached a brick wall in terms of being able to decide. i'm stuck, confused and panicky. i wonder what my friends are dealing with... so i have to decide by THIS SATURDAY.

okay people!! totally back and happy to be alive!! just finished the SMU interview last night... it was quite enjoyable actually. i'd glad that my group was friendly and the professors interviewing us didnt make us feel like throwing up out of nervousness. i'm just grateful that it went well...not that i would know how a good interview would feel like since this was my first interview EVER. so i finally have some closure on the whole thing. no news from NTU yet. its okay NTU, i'm here and i'll wait.

so i've been facing disappointment for the past 24 hours. all the 'wise' people in the world would say something like 'disappointment is part of life so suck it up and SMILE.' but NO. agreed, its part of life but i am sure as hell not going to be able to live with it!!! talk about my self esteem taking blows here...by the end of this year i'd probably be on the brink of suicide if i lived with disappointment.(i'm exaggerating here people, if you couldn't already guess) and unfortunately, there is no moving on because the disappointment is directly crippling my future. the difference between what the 'right' thing to do and what i really want to do is killing me. but there really is no competition. i will do the 'right' thing. cos its already there and its the most practical thing to do. and there's no guarantee that what i want to do will benefit me in the future. so i guess my mind is made up. yes. the conscience always wins.

firstly, i cannot BELIEVE that my laptop is deciding to die on me... it took me like half an hour just to turn on this stupid thing. it just keeps turning off whenever i press the power button. HOW ANNOYING. i hope i can get it fixed though...so many important things are saved...like my creations from photoshop!!! yes, they are truly important. i do not kid.

facebook seems to make everything sound like someone's lives are in pieces while others are just too perfect to imagine. i guess one's initial reaction to everything is slightly exaggerated before their rational thinking sets in. i cant wait for myself to get back into working order so that i can finally DO THINGS!!!!! my ears are still blocked from all the sneezing and my nose is also not 100% OK.

after like 2 weeks of being completely KO-ed by flu&cough&constant fever, i'm officially on the road to recoveryyyyy!!!! not that i'm completely okay yet but at least i'm better... since i've been sick not only have i been neglecting my social life but also, i still cant believe that i had to postpone my smu interview. but at least thats been cleared up and the interview's been pushed to next wednesday. wish me luck cos i'll need it. its in the night. OH GOSH HOW CREEPY IS THAT!!!

smu biz called for an interview tmrw!!!!! so excited/freaked out!!! dunno what to wear but that isnt the biggest problem...I'M STILL SICK WITH A REALLY BAD COUGH!!!! oh crap. CRAP. i SERIOUSLY hope that i'm better by TODAY!!! i still need to prepare... oh gosheddddd!!! i had to cancel a meeting with maha =(((( i cant believe she's being so patient...cos this is like the second time its being postponed. I'VE GOT TO GET WELL!!!

so i'm over the whole THESCRIPTISTHESICKESTBANDALIVE phase... well..not really. THEY'RE AWESOME!!!!! alrighty down to business..

and seeing what they posted on fb just makes you all happy inside to be a singaporean...

before i elaborate on the title of this post, my practical driving lesson was in the morning! i managed to do reverse directional changes and right turns! right turns are pretty irritating somehow.

SO ON FACEBOOK, THERE'S BEEN THIS EVENT THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN TODAY...AND ITS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW. I KINDA FORGOT ABOUT IT IN THE MORNING BUT AS SOON AS I REMEMBERED, I WAS TOTALLY ON IT. SOME OF YOU MIGHT STILL NOT KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT... SOON IGNORANT ONES, SOON.

mood: uptight (again)

as the title suggests, i think i'd better make life easier for myself and start advising myself on what i should be doing. its not like a really need myself nagging at me all the time but its time to start listening to one's conscience. gosh that sounded psychotic and schizophrenic.

waddup peepzzz!!! just finished another driving lesson...and finished changing prospectingforhamster's blogskin... again... don't worry you'll get used to change! =)

okay so in the previous post i had this personal challenge...and i bring good news! and slightly bad. i managed to finish everything on the list! but that said, its only fair to admit that i only finished those things at 11:30pm...so ... not that much of a celebration.. haha but hey who's paying attention right.

today is the day!!! optimism is back!!! especially with the deliciously cute hamster...not that its good enough to eat...but he's a new addition...i mean its only necessary considering the url of this blog right. hah.

oh gosh i havent finished all my uni applications and the deadlines are all approaching...things that have made it worse is that i failed my final theory test. yes. FAILED. i have never felt so intellectually challenged before... its not even the a levels and i cant believe i actually failed. OH WHAT IS MY LIFE COMING TO. and also my friends have been getting calls for interviews for the singapore unis...which i havent... this is so nerve-wracking. speaking of nerve-wracking. i hate how people spell that phrase wrongly as "nerve wrecking" like HELLO. "wreck" = TOTALLY DIFFERENT MEANING. not that i'm irritated by that but my sudden willingness to change the subject has left all the misspellers annoyed at me. everyone makes mistakes. I FORGIVE YOU MISSPELLERS. haha ohk...

good morning people

and i'm back!!! whoa...okay it seems that i have a problem being regular with posting...but i've been busy.... right now the buzzword to everything seems to be UNI APPLICATIONS. i have promised myself that i would finish by this week. everything. yes EVERYTHING!!!

hello world and all who inhabit it! i was just thinking of starting blogging...although i think that there's this high possibility that i could run out of things to post...which would then contradict the entire idea of blogging...