alrighteeee. i guess everything has sort of settled down. unfortunately my irritation surfaced yesterday. and i am sorry! i feel pretty guilty. OH GOSH. and i guess i can start making a wishlist for my birthday!!! yeah gurpreet, thats totally not self centred. I GEDDIT. but still...
hokay actually the paramore concert was big enough a present and shall not be forgotten for a long time!

but now to worry about the freshmen bash that's tmr. i have no idea what to wear!!!

hokay so the bottom line: i shall consciously try to be happy from now on. not that it was an effort before but you know what i mean.

STATS PROF WHY YOU SO MEAN TO MEEEEE!!!

i love how covers of songs dilute the original tune of the song and make it somehow more 'vulnerable and fragile.' it upps the emotion. i dunno. just a view.

speaking of views: ACADEMIC WRITING. is. not. fun. but i guess with my new positive attitude, its not that bad..i mean its about writing with your own voice so i guess i kinda like that.

signing out,
keep lookin' for them hamsters, they be hidin' in the rough.

(no idea what that meant!)

maybe i'm just feeling generally irritated thats all. THATS ALL. i should finish my work, stop distracting myself and get some readings done. and after that, recover from my paramore hangover with a good sleep. THATS THE SOLUTION. OHSHITWHATABOUTSTATS!!!! ohk i'll do that too. i guess i could finish everything by 11pm if i really get down to it. yes. NO MORE DISTRACTIONS AND PROCRASTINATION. this is the beginning of my new working self people. WATCH OUT. grumble i may, but i get my shit done.

until i finish what i set out to do,
PROSPECTING.FOR.HAMSTERS.

term has started. its officially the second week of school and i can officially say that i'm already beginning to get irritated/bored with it. what with the homework finally starting to come in and class participation being emphasized in every lesson, its honestly getting annoying. also, it could be due to how i haven't really been keeping up with my readings and other research that could be the cause of my current distress but you get the picture. i've had enough of this lifestyle. i wish i could change. i guess this lifestyle is going to change what with the ccas finally starting and all. but i don't like the idea of waiting till 7pm just to go for talks about ccas that you signed up for with your eyes and ears open. i mean, I KNEW WHAT I WAS GETTING INTO WHEN I SIGNED UP. no no, the logical part of me has begun to rationalise how talks like those would have its benefits. but then again, logic has no emotion does it. i'm also unhappy at how easily memories that i thought were invaluable and downright OMG seem to have melted away and been dismissed by a passing phrase with no meaning. LIP SERVICE. thats what i call it. it would only make sense when a person puts so much emotion into something, not to return to it with a rather dismissive attitude. i mean, WE PUT A LOT OF EMOTION INTO IT TOO. the admiration and appreciation and not to mention the AWE we had for you. and then they just leave. i guess its just disappointment talking.

oh and the PARAMORE CONCERT WAS AWESOME OH MY GOSH. hearing all those paramore songs in person with them playing and singing was just (i sound like a disney fanatic) MAGICAL. it makes the songs on the album sound hostile. cos when you're hearing it live with hayley singing her guts out and jeremy playing like its the end of the world, the song (here it comes again, another disney reference) COMES ALIVE.

so its almost here. the start of term. and today's convocation. don't ask me why convocation is at the beginning of uni life. i'm accepting some truths that have obscure logic. this is the day i've been waiting for since the end of the a levels. well. this is the end that i had in mind when i started primary school i guess. i mean, where else are you going to go? and now that its finally here, i'm not sure whether i'm actually ready for it yet.

alright. i cant believe today's convocation. i realised that i have no idea how to get to suntec. OH WELL. thats not really an issue though. okay, enough with the reflection. classes start on monday (i'm pretty sure i'm missing out on a lot in life by not having lectures.) R came back from whereever she's been hiding for the past 3 months. i'm doing this post on my new lappy btw!!! its brilliant blue. the plastic's not even off yet.

i wonder how hectic it'll be. i wonder how weird the people will be... oh gosh there are SO many questions. how in the world do you study in uni???? i have no clue. i cant even open my locker. yes gurpreet, just stay cool and act like you meant to take all that stuff back home instead.

looking at the classlists for my mods, OMG. it just makes you want to hurl. in a nervous omg way... this will have to include a lot of self-convincing. weirdness/weird people aside, CCA openhouse is this saturday... well next saturday. HOW MANY TO JOIN?!!!

ok. enough freaking out. just take a deep breathe and SMILE.

Alright I know I've been MIA since well... The last post. And I have a pretty good reason for it as well I mean i've been annoyingly busy with camps and matriculation and right now, bidding for modules and slots so that I have something to study this term. But jokes aside bidding has been really stressful and confusing. Had it not been for 2 seniors, I dont think I would have been able to figure out anything. Oh and speaking of not being able to figure things out, I have yet to open my locker. I mean I have the combination and everything but I just have no idea how to put the combination into the stupid thing! Haha oh well. I guess I'll also have to ask someone about that.

My recent camp was dirty. I mean the dirty games involved raw meat, the vegetables we had for lunch earlier, a myriad of sauces including wasabi, and molten cheese. Yes. Molten cheese. Which got stuck to my shirt that was dripping with soya sauce already. Eww.

Oh and despite the randomness of it, still in love with cobra starship's you make me feel!!!! That song makes me want tO learn how to produce music. OH WELL. I just hope I can survive term. That's not too much to ask for is it?

I lost my jacket during camp. My super awesome oversized hoodie. Shit. And then I got the weirdest reaction from some people. Awkward.

Hopefully I'll be able to post more often. Well probably not! Getting too lazy to post these days. Almost like how Natalie tran went on a REALLY long hiatus.

I'm OUT.