★ disappointment is part of life. but tt doesnt mean i like it!!!!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011 -{'11:54 AM
so i've been facing disappointment for the past 24 hours. all the 'wise' people in the world would say something like 'disappointment is part of life so suck it up and SMILE.' but NO. agreed, its part of life but i am sure as hell not going to be able to live with it!!! talk about my self esteem taking blows here...by the end of this year i'd probably be on the brink of suicide if i lived with disappointment.(i'm exaggerating here people, if you couldn't already guess) and unfortunately, there is no moving on because the disappointment is directly crippling my future. the difference between what the 'right' thing to do and what i really want to do is killing me. but there really is no competition. i will do the 'right' thing. cos its already there and its the most practical thing to do. and there's no guarantee that what i want to do will benefit me in the future. so i guess my mind is made up. yes. the conscience always wins.
universities should just personally murder all the applicants they reject cos psychologically, they're doing that already!
so in other issues, not like i should be freaking out about this now or anything but my smu interview is TODAY! in about t-8 hours 11 minutes!!! i hope this works out cos then...oh no i'll still not know what to choose. nothing i do seems to be helping my confused state of mind.
i feel like crawling into a corner and just staying there until everything is over. OH WAIT everything IS over. haha ohk, this is NOT the time for pessimism.
driving was the only thing that made today a happy day. note the PAST tense. mock driving test next lesson. the good news just keeps coming huh. note the sarcasm. to vertical parking (if vertical parking was a person) I WILL OWN YOU.
what a negative post. tsk tsk tsk. so different from the yesterday's post. how quickly moods change...
wish me luck, i'll probably need it for tonight.
but then again, on the bright side, i'm going to have a NIIIIIICEEEEE dinner tonight. and tomorrow, maybe even go out.
and then i'll go back to being paranoid about ntu sending letters by checking the mail again today...
